Dash something off and move on to the things that need to be done…

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In the arms of the ocean
Being all trued
Being seen for what one is
In entirety
Loss of keys and loss of clues
Recovery and stumbles
Jabbering among the apes nearby
Loss of methodical stillness
Loss of balance among withdrawal
Loss of chaos among lies
Loss of angels
Gain of roommates (*sigh*)
Really must not do that again
Not proving to be a willpower issue
Yet ups and downs restrict and imply
Yet unwilling to go back to treatment
Yet stilling the losses
Yet…
Get them filled and take them only when you feel like it!
See and believe
Natter and trip
No way am I going to three doctors and a therapist
No.
A bridge to be crossed
A need for something better
A few unbalanced days to be expected
Detoxing again, but more mildly
Let be, let be, let be
Let stop!
Lightning dances here
No one listens
The sound of explosions noted
The sound of God’s incipient gratitude
Demonoid spake thus:
.. Real of the night
.. Is not real of the day
.. Or it is, but you can never prove it
.. Loss of independence is costly
.. Loss of truth is harmful
.. Gain of energy, of motivation,
.. Is key to your aims
.. Slight return and capitalization of intent
.. Seizures are flukes
.. Hold to your own truth
.. Be lost amongst the articles
.. Hold to that which you know
.. “Sometimes paper is the only one who will listen to you” -twitter
.. Bully on it
.. Time to move along
.. Time to fall back in
.. To the real

Things get a little easier

Things get a little easier
Eating through the days’ time
Not wanting to nap all day (and being unable to)
Take care of yourself
But what can I do?
Cleaning, self-inquiry, cooking, blogging
Not in shape for web-design- or art-
Portfolio building just yet
When you run out of cleaning that’s when
You do art
Check Mechanical Turk transcription more thoroughly
Two point five more days until
Medication
More time still until therapy
What of work market?
You don’t have the right skills
Or not without a car
But someday still–
Check it
When the cards very specifically say
The partnership is a hindrance
And the chosen guru says otherwise – well
On the current track that was months off yet
So
No need to worry about resolving it right now
So
What will I do while this treatment program progresses
Aside from day dream
Let’s get a website built
But not yet.
First clean the house
Tackle the depression
Later we can talk about
Contracting the website
And the server administration
When I’m sober longer, maybe