Meditation with Intention & Writing

Set focus of intention before meditation. Write those down to avoid fuzzy vague mindedness.

Select a card or random passage for advice

Write seven lines on your advice theme, fear not tangents!

Set timer for meditation

Proceed.

Making out breath counts longer than in breath releases relaxation forces, practice this

Or square breathing, in x, hold x, out x, hold x, repeat

Let thoughts flow without grasping, remind yourself of intention, visualize an image(s) (may help to pick this first), breath in truth and out not truth, practice self/soul alignment… Practices are many… Mantra or Mandela

Let flow, let daily anxieties and concerns be without feeding… Don’t push the river

Focus on your purpose or approach silence, either can feed purpose. What tensions are there? Learn to let be. Note the jaw; is it tight? Relaxed (teeth are not touching, but trying to force relaxation can be worse than accepting)? Clenched? A combination? This may take time to learn… The Harmony hypnosis app can help.

Or was it impossible to sit still? Was the mind boiling? These too are information.

Pick one thing or three, the necessity is not to do all. A few minutes are better than none. Worry not about perfection.

If you feel the need, rest or nap after, although napping may disturb night sleep in some.. Note what the dreams try to tell you.. Trust yourself; dream dictionaries are not always helpful.

If it feels right, on return, light candle, incense, bless coffee or tea or whathaveyou, select seed symbols or cards or words or passages, and proceed to write. Automatic writing can also be of the form ‘x is…, x is…, x is…, x is… …’, or loose and everywhere.

Meditation 7-29

Twittering in the evening the birds–
Unwritten untrammeled and filled with space
Going deep into the place of lies–
The meditative vision of many paddles on the one hand
All things I resist
Rotating in front and very near my face
The dummy bust controller
And on the other hand,
Rotating the four or five I do at more distance, and headless
No wonder which one I prefer
And the waves of anger beyond repeating
Overpowering
Some things to be angry about; water under the bridge
And the rotation of thoughts, the addiction, driving off all these items
A few moments of silence found
The dream of cosmic-planetary scales overnight
Triumph over the things

Sifting Through the Ideas

Sifting through the ideas
What is the proper order?
But how many times must we tell you
The web design project comes first
Alliteration of the lines notwithstanding, your torments will be eased
And writing comes before either project
As we do now
Although not normally on the phone
Sifting through the ideas
They float up, and will not be denied
Perhaps a spell of meditation
To restore concentration
It gets better after posting
I will count on this
As the sun beats down
Money falls from the sky
Plenty of drugs for now
A light on the ocean
The light is Evangeline
Perhaps I could turn that into a novel
Get my mind off of
The repetitiveness of my verse
(You mostly don’t see those ones)
Not collecting dust, but collecting power
A trip to Venus is in order
My horoscope
Says I am far less troubled by sex than most
For whom it is a dilemma
And this makes them uneasy
I wonder if that’s the problem?
Moving along
Your knights will never come
Men are as human as women
So leave me out of your fantasy of perfection
The tools of the trade
The hand and the pen
Readings and signings at bookstores
Publishers?
I don’t have time to sit around waiting for rejections
The animals are getting out of control
Trapped trapped trapped til the cage is full
The beast walks the earth
Leviathan lurks in the seas
Kodiak bears, 2nd in size only to polar bears
But it turns out all brown bears and polar bears are the same species/clade
The serpent coils round the vase
The statue is in full panic mode
All of us are waiting for you
All your inner lives need you to do the work
My neighbor says a tiger used to visit him on his porch
He was unafraid
A creature from faeryland or what dimension, who can say?
I have seen several such myself, though none be tigers
The books can be sold
If I truly want beer tonight
I think I have a stash of comics in the basement
But will Half Price take them?
We accumulate and grow
We dash and slither
I need it less, now I am well supplied with pills
But how I still want it
I will be able to avoid squandering my kickstarter funds, I believe
Mark it as untouchable
Except when working full days on the project
And then we wait
For our talk/signing dates

Working a day
The tiredness grows
The hangover none
The commutes fierce
Cutting the labels out on the label cutting device
Building up a website until it is good
I go through the day
And when I get home-
Wordpress
Contemplating love spells-
And sound design
I eat the dust of lesser poets
Five pages today; though not eight-
I take the five triple mushroom aspects for the building fever of such
Bracing for minus ten colds in the morning
I blink and it is gone
A series of mistakes accrues through the afternoons
We make dinner and go to bed early-
Like nine, or eight now that I’m out of venlafaxine and can sleep late
Rising before six to by o out in the frigid predawn to write, meditate have actual breakfast before work-
Tomorrow I put on dry shoes when I get there?
Per Mom’s suggestion

flow vs loopage [intrusive processes]

simple text conveys

relation thoughts compiling

impressions momentary fleeting

reflecting back dropping away

easily and more easily

or forcing endless looping

change of context one way

make it long and silent

meditation brings calm faster

hard as it may be to sit

cut the stress, clear the plate

open to new life

simpler

Additional update and ramblings

Waking up at 330am with very bad feelings… they pass when i eventually get up. took 12 mg of melatonin and isochronic tones for sleep to no avail

Yee !! flickr on second thought perhaps Yee !! is the artist. hmm. stealing anyway

Yee !! flickr on second thought perhaps Yee !! is the artist. hmm. stealing anyway

Really hope syria does not mushroom into world war iii or a regional war either

Have finally moved off the tablet and cell phone, but dont have desktop set up at home again yet (moving it back from studio). Waiting until that is done to load up the new poems (where are those damn notebooks? is it just the three of them?).

Classes are back in. Things are looking up. Havent been to stdio for awhile to work, due to being occupied with house and garden work and enjoying the last fling of summer idleness. Running out of cigarettes and broke again, but hopefully that can be rectified later this morning. Still having issues with twitter and gmail due to many password resets in the wake of NSA meddling. (sorry twitter is linked to my name so i cannot post it here).

Forrest L Norvell flickr cc sa 2.0

Forrest L Norvell flickr cc by-sa 2.0

Painting was going well. … will get back to it soon. Drinking seems to have an inverse relationship with painting/drawing (in that the art deters the drinking, not the other way around). Oh if only I could have 48 hours a day (on the other hand (OTOH) that would double my gas, smoke, food, and bar tabs, perhaps not so good.

Class load looks doable this semester. Possibly even fun.

[[redacted paragraph due to professional concerns]]

Travellers have reappeared in town, or perhaps I just missed them before? I see this as a plus.

Memorial service later on which [[no, redacted]]

Having run out of things to do for the moment and with the housemate still asleep i guess i will perhaps go to the park, although the cafe would be preferred.

Had a very ‘successful’ meditation the other day. Different pattern from my usual wandering among modalities. First, lemme see what was it?… 3 minutes of centering grounding, linking to the powers above, and dropped and open attention [[¬†https://www.powells.com/biblio/9781585423477 ]] due to an alarm error, 5 minutes of ‘triple soul alignment’ [[ ibid. ]] 5 minutes visualisation (used my painting that is everyones favorite instead of one of the more traditional modalities, this proved far easier to hold), and 5 minutes of [something] [will have to update later when i locate the earlier notes, as i am drawing a blank]. Then 10 minutes of either open sensory monitoring, or watching the breath/body feelings. The mind was far quieter than usual during the first four bits. Kicked up a bit during the last. Also had that thing where the normally silent parts of the mind throw words and images seemingly out of leftfield/nowhere at you. Always fun.

Brother O'Mara (i cropped and squashed it, so what) CC BY-NC-ND 2.0

Brother O’Mara (i cropped and squashed it, so what) CC BY-NC-ND 2.0

Vindication.

At least one guerilla propaganda operation IRL scheduled. oh right i remember the second half. Have to write that down. Temporal artwork shall we say. &

hmmm/// having erased twitter from my phone i am not too up on current events. running out of stuff here. plotting some volunteer and temporary escaping as well. Yes i know i failed to deliver last time, but now class is back in. Although I have become interested in city government somewhat, I still lean anarchist, and do not wish to volunteer for additional surveillance by showing up at this time.

Yay for stealing photos! (You the photographer stole the graffiti to begin with, so I consider this fair use) [[Phantom aroma of corn tortillas, i wonder if im being summoned to the taco house? or that taco punk thing i have never tried… hmm one of my rules is to stick near to the local realities, which in this case means the place i already know, but it is still not open after the disruption yet]]

you sir are definitely not brrr!. also free brrr!! and brrr! it is 'base' not 'bases'

you sir are definitely not brrr!. also free brrr!! and brrr! it is ‘base’ not ‘bases’

Incidentally brrr was busted for stealing nineteen t-shirts that used his image (printed by a shop he tagged). He is said to be considering copyright infringement charges, although this would lay him open to prosecution for every single brrr graffiti….